Today is a day of great anxiety. In a couple of hours I will no longer be a home owner for the first time since I was twenty years old. We are closing on the sale of our home. Coupled with my impending divorce and and the current economy it is an anxious time.
With the relief of the sale comes some uncertainty about our individual futures. For me the uncertainty is an uneasy feeling of not being settled. There are still so many things to find resolve in my life. Completing the divorce is next and I hope it can go smoothly and we can both move on in positive directions.
Beyond that and a very clear understanding that all of this is in the hands of God my future is not as clear. As I prepare to leave on an eight week teaching tour I am not sure where I will be living when I return. My landlord has given me the opportunity to stay where I am but I am not sure it will be the best decision for me.
The next couple of weeks are filled with a tremendous amount of work as I prepare to leave. There are so many details to be finished; course preparation, packing (not only myself but my office and all of my teaching materials). Working with my program hosts to be sure they have all the information they need to promote the classes and the detail parade marches on.
I remind myself to rely on God but when you are in the moment it is sometimes hard to see. Anxious—yes, concerned—a little, faithful—always.
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