It has again been a number of weeks since I wrote in this blog. This time has been a time of transition and emotional healing for me. Moving past the difficulties of my recently ended marriage and my struggling business has been much more difficult than I had anticipated.
The holiday season has been tough. I have had a lot of time alone and too much time to think and be sad. Most of the activities I would have usually been involved I have pulled away from. It was just too hard to put on a happy face and do all of the charitable things which always meant so much in the past. My hope is this will be the last Christmas when I feel this way and I can get beyond myself and look to helping those who have greater needs.
God has called me to this place and in that nothing has changed. I firmly believe I am following his plan for my life. He continues to show me glimpses of a bright and promising future.
The brightest part is a future with Susie. She continues to be my grounding point as I work through my anxiety and depression. Frankly, I don’t know how I would have gotten through this past year without her in my life. She is my shining star.
In fact, I have decided to move to Idaho in mid-January. It is a chance for a new start. A time for some emotional healing and most important Susie and I will be together. We are excited about starting a life together.
My hope is that I can also bring new energy and focus to my business. It like many small businesses has felt the full effect of a poor economy. I am hopeful we will begin to see better days for us all in the coming year. In turn I can become a better father to my kids and a better friend and better business person. Most of all I want to be a more obedient servant to God’s will for my life.
So as 2009 comes to an end I feel a sense of relief and look forward to the coming year with a renewed sense of hope and promise. I have trusted God to lead me this far and I will continue to trust in him to lead me in the future.
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