This past week marked six months since I made a life changing decision. On July 3, 2008 I told my wife of twenty-seven years I wanted a divorce. In the months since my life has completely been turned on its ear. The life I had enjoyed and cherished was no longer. I found myself living alone for the first time, adjusting to a much different lifestyle.
For much of the past six months I have gone through a grieving process. Much like a person would who has lost a significant person in their life. There have been days of anger, tears, frustration, guilt and all of those other emotions which come with such a radical change.
In recent weeks I have begun to see light in the darkness. God has begun to show me the purpose in my life again and I have begun to engage him more readily as I make decisions for my future. It has been a long lonely road to get myself out of the dark and barren place where I had existed for many months. In recent weeks the pity parties have turned into plans for the future and for the first time in a long time I feel a great deal of hope and optimism for my life. Learning to work on God’s time and his plan is one of the most frustrating things I ever do.
But I am reminded often of his plan and that I need to have patience and allow him to lead my life. In this Blog I hope to share how God is working in my life. I guess this is kind of a selfish process as I really have found writing as a valuable tool for me in my personal discernment. In writing in this format I hope it may help others who are struggling with life circumstances a sense of hope and assurance that God is alive and working in their lives as well.
Comments and insights from readers are always welcome.
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